The Ebb and the Flow

unfortunately, we're definitively into "ebb" territory.

work sucks, especially when they lay people off. i'm a survivor, mostly because i'm still a grunt who actually gets work done (at times). this means, however, that i have to pick up the slack left when my boss (co-worker / friend) was let go. somehow, i can't shake the feeling that he's the lucky one.

combine that with everything else and my mapping time has been exactly nothing since my last post. the honest truth of the matter is that i'm exhausted, and trying to work up the energy to stay up that extra hour just to get some work on this done is nigh unto impossible right now. i'm hoping that my lack of real drive and inspiration is just a symptom of adjusting to family stuff. it had better be, because i don't want the Cynical Me - you know, the one who said that actually finishing a level to beta was a pipe dream - to win.